I know for a fact that I am not the only gay person in the world that often feels like they have to navigate a straight world. This is what makes gay bars and clubs so sweet, you don’t have to always wonder where you stand. Lately I have been feeling like I have been thrown into a “straight world” and I sometimes have problems being myself.
My boyfriend and I met some of his friends who happen to be fraternity boys in a bar. The night started out fine but was weird after we met up with the friends as I felt neglected in the conversation. The night went on and later I decided to go home as boyfriend was feeling very uncomfortable with the both of us sitting there and looking “obvious.” And yes, there’s only one obvious person here and it’s not him. So he mentioned something about getting beaten or something and I suggested that I go home and he stay. He wanted to have fun with his friends. I wanted to go, worked out well. Sometimes I also fear being bashed, but for me that can be anywhere since I am “obvious”, for some it’s only when they verbalise their gayness or hang out with people who are “obvious.”
This situation did not make me too angry or mad. It just magnifies how I am gay in a “straight world” and how I must try to fit in it. I refuse to be anything but myself. So I will live in this “straight world” and I will be GAY in it.
it is sort of stupid and stressful at times and … yo.
haing a girlfriend, after a long homosexuality life is a serious challenge. there is no need to explain as many called it being confused. the challenge is that, most gay guys i met and hanged around with at the township are living lifestyles that are not for me, and hanging around folks with habits that dont suite me, and, some are as criminals as the straights i saw and hanged up with daily when i was growing up at the township.
nobody understands, and nobody to talk to, but, just goi a lot of dora on that throat to survive the heterosexual dating life
believe me when i say, having some homosexual feeling and and tying yourself into a heterosexual affair is ass-digging and tressful enough.
you know that some people see through you and tell you what you are struggling to honestly admit and trying to survive in the straight world.
just imagine, how stressful it is when you have a child with that straight woman.
anyway, you all know that, being gay, gaysh, straightish, and not totally straight is an issue enough, especially when you dont have the mechanisms to deal with the challenges.
it life joe.
By: gayish in a straight world on June 12, 2008
at 7:42 AM